This blog post may seem a bit all over the place, however; bare with me. I have a lot of thoughts in my mind at this moment.

As I sit in my condo looking out the window on this Christmas Eve morning while listening to my praise and worship. I am so overjoyed with GODS love for me.

I am operating in a very peaceful space at this very moment. Our 3 oldest granddaughters are coming over today for a few hours. I am excited about that, I miss spending time with them, with all of our grandchildren.

Devan and I would see them a lot but since his passing, I haven’t been able to have them over like we used to. I know that may sound crazy to some people, however; for me, it’s too painful. Our grandchildren only know ‘Nana & PawPaw” together as one. So when I see them that magnifies the ache I already have from not having my Devan in this world with me. Our grandchildren were cheated they miss their Paw Paw so much! I wish they didn’t have to feel this pain at such a young age.

I thank GOD that our children are grown (ages at the time of their daddy’s passing 29,25,23,21) its been 1 year and it feels like it was yesterday. When I look at our sons I see the void in their lives without their daddy. I wish I could fix it, parents are supposed to be able to fix things and I can’t. So I pray and trust GODS perfect plan for our lives.

Devan and I had a friend that lost her husband about 4 years ago. They were married for many years (they were also young early 40’s) and when her husband passed away and that truly touched Devan. I remember seeing her a few months before my husband passed away. We talked briefly and she went on her way. I felt for her, I couldn’t even imagine that being me.
Well, here I stand walking in the shoes of a widow, no warning, no signs nothing. My Devan left this place suddenly and unexpectedly according to me.

Yes, I am a widow learning how to live in this world without My Devan. I will continue to do that because of the call on my life from GOD. My husband fulfilled is created purpose and although he isn’t here physically he is still touching people in his passing. My Devan will never truly die, his spirit is too strong. We were truly soulmates… meaning our souls were mates. So when you see me you see him, I am him and he is me!

So as I approach this new year without My Devan, I am doing so fully trusting each moment because each moment is one that I’ve never seen before. I am walking in thankfulness & gratitude for everything that is before me. Some days are much harder than others, however; I have chosen to continue on my path because if I wasn’t supposed to be in this place and space I wouldn’t.
I have a very awesome year and life in front of me, I am walking moment by moment

Happy New Year

About 

Who is Kimberly Nicole Johnson a GOD fearing Author, Woman, Widow, Wife Mom, Nana, Daughter, Sister, Friend, Entrepreneur, Breast Cancer Survivor,

Kimberly helped build their business/brand side by side with her husband they were the 1st Black owned /operated husband & wife team with a business in Cincinnati, Ohio OTR(Over The Rhine) Incredible Creations Beauty & Barber Salon their Brand is very well known to the masses. Kimberly & Devan were more than regular salon owners she is a Platform artist, educator, and a mentor they worked each day together as one most of all they were best friends. They had no idea what they were about to face…….

Kim fought and WON the fight over Breast Cancer in 2014 with her husband Devan Johnson the Love of her Life by her side every step of the way never leaving her to do it alone to then turn around and lose him suddenly & unexpectedly in 2016. She thought her hardest battle was in 2014 but when she lost her husband she realized that NOW was a crossroad for her. So she has decided to rise from the storm and walk authentically & truthfully in her purpose! GOD showed her how to “Unleash the Power of Greatness’ within.

Kim has been thrust into her purpose of being an Author, releasing her first book "WALKING WITHOUT MY CANE" as a motivational speaker she is going to share, motivate & inspire others that a happy, fulfilling life is possible after facing such heartaches. Life can and will go on and it will be amazing despite what the past looks like. She will show others that your past doesn’t have to dictate how your future looks. She will show others how to be authentic, walk in their truth, live in the moment & Just Be.