An Army of One

We are all Soldiers Marching in this New Army. We did not get excited and go into our Local Recruiting office to enlist. We did not ask for this!  We were chosen for this army. We are soldiers in this army. Some of us have been in this army fighting, marching, leading, crying, grieving, carrying the weight of the world, hiding our pain from the world for over 20 years.  Some of us, like me only 3 years. We are an army of one! We are army strong!! Yes, we are grieving, yes it is hard, yes it makes life hard to live, yes it makes some of us want to turn in our combat boots and our army gear.

Yes, it makes some of  us want to place ourselves on the front so that we can see our Husband’s face again. We are in this army unprepared for that phone call, for that sickness, for that tragic accident, for that last breath. No one gave us a Widow handbook when we said, “I Do” We did not receive any basic training, we did not graduate from boot camp, and get all of the tools we would need to fight this battle. We were thrown into this army. We are an army of one. We all have been enlisted in this military to battle widowhood and when we March this journey and deal with our own issues and we begin to cope with our new reality. We all fight this battle differently. Some of us fight this battle by crying each and every day not knowing how to deal. Some of is like  me have constant communication with a therapist, and had to walk away from full time employment due to post traumatic stress disorder.  I do not have a Purple Heart, but a broken heart.  Some of us move on and find new soldiers who can understand our pain and try to start a new life and forget the pain of the past. We all carry different stripes and heal in our on way. No matter where you are just remember we are all in this Army together and when one of us hurts we all hurt because we are an army of one. So lean of your sister when you need a shoulder to lean on. We are in this Battle together. We are  an Army of One!

About Jamie Foster

Jamie Foster resides in Daphne, Alabama with her daughter and two grand puppies. On January 10, 2019 at 10:30 p.m. her life was shattered as the man that God kept for her suffered a heart attack in his sleep. A fairytale that began so beautifully just three years prior ended in tragedy. She made a statement two years before she started dating Rev. Kenneth Foster, as he preached a sermon at her church. She said to a friend, “I am going to marry Rev. Foster one day, and make him a very good wife”. Two years later, after about 4 dinner dates, Kenneth told her; that God showed him that she was his wife. They married a few months later on November 28, 2015. In three years, they lived out their wedding vows richer, poorer, sickness, health, and till death do us part.

She never imagined that she could feel so much pain in her entire body!! The love of her life the man she prayed for is now gone. She immediately began to question everything she knew, everything she believed in.

After Kenneth’s death, she had nothing else to hold on to but the Faith that they talked about, the Faith that he preached about. The road is a difficult one, but she pushes forward. On this journey, she has come in contact with women all over the world who share the same grief and the same pain that she does. She started to find comfort and joy in knowing that others understood her heartache and pain.

In 2021, she left her full-time job to focus on her Mental Health. She became the CEO of Foster & Foster H.R. Solutions, an Independent Insurance Agent, a blogger of Foundation of Truths, a Motivational Speaker, and she is penning the pages to a book that is long overdue.

Jamie always knew that her gift, was her powerful voice and she is walking in her purpose. It is to help encourage, motivate, inspire, and lift up all of her fellow sisters as we are all on this journey together. She lives each day no matter how hard, by the words of Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans he has for me”.