Becoming a widow at the age of 43 changed my life forever. I was now faced with being alone in this world without the man that I waited and prayed for. I prayed for someone who was gentle, loving, kind, and caring; all of the qualities that were lacking in my first marriage. In 2015 God answered my prayers my Blessing me with a man who loved me just the way I was. He became my friend, my counselor, my strong supporter, and my lover. In 2019, on January 10th is when I took on the title widow. Now at the age of 45 most people tell me it is time for me to date again. That I am too young to be single., that I will find love again.” To date or not to date is the question” So trying to be optimistic I let me guard down, and tried to be open to dating, not thinking that I would love again, but willing to try. What I have learned is that my husband was one of a kind. Dating is right for me right now. I have tried to give it a chance, but it has not been a positive experience. After being loved unconditionally, I find it hard to settle for anyone. “To date or not to date is the question” When I think of dating, I know that I have to be fair, and allow the person to get to know me and my character. I remind myself that this person in not Kenneth so give him a chance. “To date or not to date is the question” Dating comes with all kinds of emotions, that we have to be prepared for. “To date or not to date is the question” Will this person love me with all of my imperfections? Will this person allow me to trust again? Will this person understand that I go to the cemetery often? Will this person understand that my heart is fragile? Will the person understand that I still need therapy to deal with my PTSD? Will the person understand that I want to be able to love them and trust them? Will the person understand that sometimes I will cry on those special moments that I shared with my husband? Will that person understand that I need him to be patient with me? “To date or not to date is the question” I have kissed enough frogs to last me a lifetime, so I do not need to go down that path again. “To date or not to date is the question” I have tried it, I did not like it, I came across some more frogs. “To date or not to date is the question” My answer to this question is simple, I will date again if it is a part of God’s Plan for my life. So, I will wait patiently and not rush into anything just to fill the empty space in my home, in my heart, and in my mind. “To date or not to date is the question” I will say to everyone reading this make sure dating is something that you want, and not what family, friends, and other people are telling you to do. Move in your own time, at your own pace, do what is right for you and your sanity. Do what makes you comfortable, do what makes you happy. As for me I will wait and not rush anything with anyone that is not compatible with me just for the sake of dating. I will wait patiently, and I will know when my heart is ready.
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