I heard a song the other day by Ed Sherran, called visiting hours. It melted my heart the words are powerful when he comes to how I feel. I wished that heaven had visiting, especially on the days when I struggle to make it through the day. I wish that heaven had visiting hours, so that I can speak to God and ask him why? I wish that heaven had visiting so I can tell Kenneth how much I miss him and tell him about all the things that has changed since he has been away. I wish that heaven had visiting hours, so that I can talk to Kenneth and ask him for his advice. I wish that heaven had visiting hours; so that I can feel his touch, smell his skin, rub his head, hold him and not let him go. I wish that heaven had visiting hours so I could swing by to tell God how my heart is broken and shattered. I wish that heaven had visiting hours so that I could tell you how your team Florida Gators has played the last few years. If heaven had visiting hours, I would ask God to please give you back to me, I would tell him how unfair it was to take, the man that I know he kept for me away. If heaven had visiting hours, I would talk to God and tell him this pain that I feel hurts more each and every day. If heaven had visiting hours, I would stay until visiting hours are over each day. I would stay and cherish each and every moment. I would catch you up on all of the episodes of Paternity Court, watch Training Day for the 100 time with you, I would tell you how many times I have cooked, and burned something in the oven, I would just sit and listen to you talked for hours.

This widow journey is a different journey for each of us, we all handle it differently. They say that time heals all wounds, I am waiting on that day to come. I will encourage each of you as I encourage myself to stay in the fight and live a life that I know my husband would be proud of.


Jamie Foster resides in Daphne, Alabama with her daughter and two grand puppies. On January 10, 2019 at 10:30 p.m. her life was shattered as the man that God kept for her suffered a heart attack in his sleep. A fairytale that began so beautifully just three years prior ended in tragedy. She made a statement two years before she started dating Rev. Kenneth Foster, as he preached a sermon at her church. She said to a friend, “I am going to marry Rev. Foster one day, and make him a very good wife”. Two years later, after about 4 dinner dates, Kenneth told her; that God showed him that she was his wife. They married a few months later on November 28, 2015. In three years, they lived out their wedding vows richer, poorer, sickness, health, and till death do us part.

She never imagined that she could feel so much pain in her entire body!! The love of her life the man she prayed for is now gone. She immediately began to question everything she knew, everything she believed in.

After Kenneth’s death, she had nothing else to hold on to but the Faith that they talked about, the Faith that he preached about. The road is a difficult one, but she pushes forward. On this journey, she has come in contact with women all over the world who share the same grief and the same pain that she does. She started to find comfort and joy in knowing that others understood her heartache and pain.

In 2021, she left her full-time job to focus on her Mental Health. She became the CEO of Foster & Foster H.R. Solutions, an Independent Insurance Agent, a blogger of Foundation of Truths, a Motivational Speaker, and she is penning the pages to a book that is long overdue.

Jamie always knew that her gift, was her powerful voice and she is walking in her purpose. It is to help encourage, motivate, inspire, and lift up all of her fellow sisters as we are all on this journey together. She lives each day no matter how hard, by the words of Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans he has for me”.