It has been 1461 days since my love left me here to continue life’s journey. It has been lonely without you here; nothing can stop the tears from falling. No one compares to you! I have experienced depression, drinking, emotional eating, sleeping all day, not sleeping, not eating, uncontrollable tears, being angry, being sad, simply just grieving.

In the last 1461 days life has taught me that the brain, and the body is fragile. I never in my life could have imagined that my heart and my brain would endure such pain, and that I would be on this journey of life without the man that made my heart smile! Without the man that would rub my feet! The man that loved me! The man that called me beautiful on my worst days! The man that was so gentle, patient, and kind.

No one can compare to my late husband, no one or nothing can compare to him. I have realized that life is too short, and I try to embrace each moment, and each day because I do not know when it will be my last.

This journey of widowhood has made me look at life with a new approach! I want to laugh again, I want my heart to smile again, I want to feel love again, I want to live life to the fullest learning new things, discovering new ventures, discovering how to live alone, accomplishing goals, aspirations, and dreams.

No one can compare to Kenneth Foster as our love was a very special love.

I encourage each of you to reflect on your own lives and try to live again, whatever that looks like for you. Find a new purpose for your life and live it unapologetically.

 

Jamie Foster

Jamie Foster resides in Daphne, Alabama with her daughter and two grand puppies. On January 10, 2019 at 10:30 p.m. her life was shattered as the man that God kept for her suffered a heart attack in his sleep. A fairytale that began so beautifully just three years prior ended in tragedy. She made a statement two years before she started dating Rev. Kenneth Foster, as he preached a sermon at her church. She said to a friend, “I am going to marry Rev. Foster one day, and make him a very good wife”. Two years later, after about 4 dinner dates, Kenneth told her; that God showed him that she was his wife. They married a few months later on November 28, 2015. In three years, they lived out their wedding vows richer, poorer, sickness, health, and till death do us part. She never imagined that she could feel so much pain in her entire body!! The love of her life the man she prayed for is now gone. She immediately began to question everything she knew, everything she believed in. After Kenneth’s death, she had nothing else to hold on to but the Faith that they talked about, the Faith that he preached about. The road is a difficult one, but she pushes forward. On this journey, she has come in contact with women all over the world who share the same grief and the same pain that she does. She started to find comfort and joy in knowing that others understood her heartache and pain. In 2021, she left her full-time job to focus on her Mental Health. She became the CEO of Foster & Foster H.R. Solutions, an Independent Insurance Agent, a blogger of Foundation of Truths, a Motivational Speaker, and she is penning the pages to a book that is long overdue. Jamie always knew that her gift, was her powerful voice and she is walking in her purpose. It is to help encourage, motivate, inspire, and lift up all of her fellow sisters as we are all on this journey together. She lives each day no matter how hard, by the words of Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans he has for me”.

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