I feel like I have run out of words to describe my feelings. I feel like I have been screaming in my loudest voice for 28 488.8915 hours and I have run out of words to describe just how I feel. It has been 28 488.8915 hours, and the world, my family, friends, church family, and my daughter thinks that I should be over my feelings by now. I have gone through the stages of grief, I have journaled my feeling in several journals, I have laid on the sofa and shared my feelings more than someone in a Lifetime movie. I have cried until I have permanent bags under my eyes, and I apply makeup every day for the first time in my life.
It has been 28 488.8915 hours, and I feel the same way I did in that 1st hour I became a widow. I have cried, I have prayed, I have asked God why? It has been 28 488.8915 hours and I am just angry! How many hours is it going to take for all of these emotions to go away? How many hours is it going to take for me to feel like myself again? How many hours is it going to take for me to get some of my joy back? How many hours is it going to take for me to stop wearing this mask to hide how I truly feel? I know that some of you reading this can relate to some of these feelings.
We all have our good and bad days; sometimes more bad than good. We carry these feelings and we do all we can to make it through, the hours since the passing of our husband’s. Just remember to do like I do I scream if you need to scream, cry if you need to cry, I let it out because it is healthy to get it out, it is healthy to talk about it, it is healthy to write about it. Live each day embracing the memories that are left behind, and remember to release those feelings that have been built up for hours.
Mark your calendars! Hope For Widows Foundation’s annual virtual event has returned on Saturday, April 2, and Sunday, April 3, 2022! Anyone can join! Whether you are a widow, widower, or a friend/family member showing support or walking in the loss of another family member, everyone is welcome to participate. The proceeds will directly support widows through the annual financial Restoring Hope and Peace Grants, Sunshine Boxes program, and Bring Hope Holiday Assistance Program. Do you have or know a business that would like to sponsor? That’s an option too! To register and frequently asked questions- please go here: widowsofhope5k.racewire.com