A Thanks to You…

I used to serve you your plate of food the moment you were ready. Sure, you had days when you waited on me. It was the joy I relished in when I could feed you a hot meal made with love. You were always impressed by my cooking, even if I was having an off day and it wasn’t so great. You would always tell me how delectable it was. Thank you for being so sweet and allowing me to serve you in more than one way. This year, I will be serving hope for widows on Thanksgiving.

Holiday Grief

Thanksgiving is in a couple of days and I feel empty just like the chair that will be next to me. The emotions that stir up inside me are greater than watching my family stir up the kitchen with all of the cooking. I want to participate, I want to rejoice with them, but I can’t seem to get out of the void that is my broken spirit. Do you also find it difficult to “snap out of it?”

Coping with Gratitude

This will be the first Thanksgiving I would have spent with my fiance. Although I do not have any memories of this holiday with him, I feel that our unborn child will permeate throughout the room leaving a different impression for me to keep moving forward. Thanksgiving doesn’t have to be desolate nor does it have to be about  what I don’t have.  It is my faith in the Lord that has reminded me of a way to cope and be thankful.

Hope for Widows on Thanksgiving

In Philippians 4:6 it reads “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” I am here today doing my best to cope in the healthiest manner. I WANT the anxiousness to subside and I WANT my requests to be made known to God and everyone else around me. But how do I actually bring myself to do that? For me, submission is my start. Today, I will prepare my own thanksgiving plate of acknowledging my pain, submitting to the love around me, and coping with creating news memories. Korbin is with me. Our son growing inside my womb is him. We are in fact celebrating together, no matter what.

Thank you Hope For Widows Foundation for giving me a platform to express my journey through words. I will forever be grateful for this opportunity to be a part of a community that is encouraging me to be brave enough to post my very first blog. Here is to many more to come! Happy Thanksgiving!

About Megan Carlos

Megan was about to turn thirty when she decided to accept a proposal from her sweetheart Korbin. The couple had met in Santa Fe, New Mexico at St. John's Church and decided to carry on in Albuquerque, New Mexico where Korbin had his own landscaping business. Megan and Korbin were excited to start a family after she left her job as an Artist in Santa Fe and wanted to focus on staying home to care for the family through the 2020 pandemic. On October 12, 2020 Megan lost her fiance to suicide. Her struggle of being five months pregnant and having to address the seriousness of mental illness, had prompted her to advocate for herself and reach out to others. It was then she found Hope for Widows and strongly had the desire to share her story in hopes of reaching someone that it could help as well as moving towards a path of healing and positive impact.