The Death Certificate


looks like our marriage certificate

except our union is split,

cleaved from me.

I’m choiceless.


Onset to death

2.5 hours


Treatment given

from onset to death

2.5 hours


Paramedics arrived at 7:03am

Pronounced dead at 9:34am



Cardiac arrest

Ventricle Fibrillation



I said, do not cut up his

Beautiful Body.

We all know what happened.


I turned down

organ donation.

He considered it,

but never made a final decision,

so I did.


Don’t call me again,

I said,

I have lost enough.


I found the papers

in my dad’s bag.


He had them filed away

because a father always protects.


But, daddy, the story was already written –

It must have been me.




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Amanda thought March 4th, 2020, would be just another normal morning until her husband, Ed, went into cardiac arrest due to his heart condition, HCM, hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. There was a 1% chance of sudden death, but he passed that day. He was 40 years young, and they had been married for 14 years. One week later the world went into lockdown due to Covid, and Amanda and her two small sons, who were 9 and 11, would be left grieving during the strangest of times.

During this time, writing was the only way Amanda could cope. She wrote the manuscript The Queen of Joyful Things, which are poems about losing her husband. She is happy to be a part of the Hope for Widows community and hopes her story will help other young widows. You can visit her at: