I’m Not As Strong As You Think

 

I’m not as strong as you think.

In fact, inside I always feel weak.

I can paste on a smile,

And a cheerful tone for a while.

 

I can act and play my part.

But inside I’m still nursing

Reviewing, and rehearsing

The wounds of my broken heart.

 

I’m not as strong as you think.

I can function each day.

There are bills to be paid.

Kids to raise, food to put on the table.

 

But just because I seem able

To get through the day

Doesn’t mean I’m emotionally stable.

 

With each passing thought

And all the things I must do

I bring him along.

He goes there too.

 

No matter the day,

No matter the place,

This great loss in my life

Cannot be erased.

 

I’m not as strong as you think.

So please don’t measure

The length of my pain.

 

No matter the years

Since I last held his hand,

My love for him will remain.

 

Before I was ready

I said goodbye.

How do you know how that feels?

 

When someone that close is

ripped out of your life,

the pain is truly unreal.

 

I’m not as strong as you think.

I face the insecure unknowns

I daily battle the fear

I carry the weight of the world

While my face is soaked with tears.

 

Though it feels hopeless,

I cannot give in.

So please be careful

How you judge and assume.

 

I must live a life

That I didn’t want to choose.

And you have never

walked in my shoes.

 

In Hope & Prayers,

From This Widow Mama

 

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Dorothy Swanson

Dorothy lost her beloved husband Oct 2021 to a very unexpected bacterial pneumonia that quickly became septic shock. Her other half and best friend was born with a serious congenital heart defect. Because of that, she had always feared the possibility of being a widow, but she thought it would be more likely due to his heart, and more likely when her husband was in his 50s after the children were grown. Instead, he graduated to heaven just one week before turning 34. Dorothy was 36 with young sons ages 5 and 16 months who adored their Daddy. In less than 48 hours, the life Dorothy and her beloved husband so carefully built together shattered. They were blessed to share just over 8 wonderful, joyous and fun years of marriage. While her heart is so thankful to God for having had their journey together, she has struggled since his death with feeling hurt and let down by God. She has felt so devastated that their love story was short and ended so abruptly. Join her as she shares her unfolding journey of grasping to faith in Christ as she journeys through love, loss, single parenthood, honoring her husband's legacy and guiding her sons through their grief and life without Daddy.

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