Guilt is a widow’s best friend. Every window I know has felt guilty about something along their journey. Things they could control, things they couldn’t control, things that were in no way their responsibility. Yet every widow I know has ...
“It’s all his fault.” That is a phrase I have often uttered in my house since my late husband died. Something breaks, it’s Jared’s fault because he’s not here to fix it. If something goes wrong, it’s Jared’s fault ...
Someone recently made a comment to me about “still doing the widow thing.” This person said your remarried, so you’re not a widow anymore. I tried to nicely say that even though I am Jon’s wife, I will always be ...
One thing I can definitely say about my life, is that it did not go as planned. Almost 19 years ago I stood in the church and said I do to my husband. Vowed to love him until death ...
So much has changed since Jared died. I often find myself thinking, if he hadn’t died things would be so different. I wouldn’t have so much fear. I wouldn’t have so much anxiety. I wouldn’t have PTSD from holding ...
Being a widowed mom is one of the hardest things I have ever done. No one prepares you to be a solo parent. There’s no one coming to take your child so you can have a break. No one to ...
New Year’s 2013 my little family of 3 rang in the New Year together in Virginia. It was FREEZING (especially for us Floridians) but we enjoyed the local celebration and exploring the town of Williamsburg. As always, Jared and I ...
People assume because I’m remarried, the holidays are easier. That I don’t miss Jared. That I’ve moved on. Nothing could be further from the truth. Being a remarried widow doesn’t ease the pain of losing Jared. Especially at ...
The holiday season is officially upon us. And the holidays are such a hard time of year. Especially for widows. During this time of year, I always miss Jared even more. I wish he was here to go to the ...
When my late husband, Jared died I swore I’d never date again. Never fall in love. And would certainly never marry again. And if I did it would be after my son was grown. Twenty six months after Jared ...