Own your grief, but don’t let grief own you.
You’ve been through hell on Earth.
You’ve endured a loss only few can comprehend.
You get to cry whenever you feel like it, for whatever reason.
You get to be a bad ass.
You get to be a puddle of tears.
You get to skip a holiday.
You get to decide how you grieve.
One time, our daughter’s dental hygienist told me she was pregnant after dealing with debilitating infertility, and I cried, I bawled actually. We ended up crying together with my 3 ½ year old daughter looking at us like we were fools.
See…in that moment, it was like a movie playing, I saw my husband and I getting the call from the fertility clinic that we were finally pregnant. I cried, he was the happiest I’d ever seen him. He was relieved and so thankful my body didn’t have to go through anymore shots. Then a quick look of confusion from him…..I was sobbing….he didn’t know what to do, as I was not a crier. I was crying from relief too.
I saw us in slow motion, and then all of a sudden… I was jolted back to our reality of him being dead, and I will never feel that type of joy again.
The hygienist understood and we hugged in a silent understanding of infertility and loss.
Own those moments of pain.
I told lots of people that story as an example of never knowing when or where a grief burst may happen. Grief bursts are short and intense bursts of emotions that come on as fast as they leave.
Cry, scream, yell, cuss, giggle, laugh, tell the story, own.it.
Own your grief, you’ve earned it.
Grieving is a badass superpower. Own it.