The cashier insisted I bring home two pumpkins and a giant bag of candy after I awkwardly responded to her Halloween inquiry. ‘Uhm, Halloween just....isn't in the cards this year.' A thousand responses had flipped through my mind when she ...
I still feel married. The dichotomy of this phrase is largely dismissed by widows. Conversely, we pass it around like bread at the dinner table, slathering it with butter and comforting our palates with the way it rolls off our ...
I have believed in God for as long as I can remember. My mother and the church indoctrinated me with visions of the cross, and on Sundays, I trailed behind her with hurried steps while she marched us towards service ...
My first grief therapy experience was a disaster – a Freudian approach connecting everything back to sex and my parents that left me feeling more broken and bewildered than when I began. The counseling was shoved in my face about ...
The day I learned the term "Executive Dysfunction", I felt seen. Finally, someone said this was an actual thing, and it wasn't just me being lazy and willfully disorganized. Executive dysfunction is when you have problems with your executive function ...
...with him. Sometimes I imagine what a conversation with my late husband Bret, would be like. Let's say he's given some kind of temporary earth pass (which I think some dreams might actually be) to sit down and catch ...
Whoever said “it gets easier with time” lied their asses off. They were either delusional or just downright bat shit crazy. Apparently, they never experienced the death of someone they loved with every fiber of their being because there’s no ...
CW: Suicide/Suicide methods My husband died by suicide. All loss is painful, all deaths break hearts. Deaths by suicide, however, are more than painful; they are also taboo. I am nearly five out from that utterly devastating day and in ...
We have officially turned the seasonal wheel from the light part of the year toward the darker days. Autumn is many people's preferred season and I absolutely understand why. It's gorgeous and cozy and offers us many treats of the ...
On this day, sixteen years ago, sitting about three miles from where I am now, I logged into MySpace and my world forever changed. This was the day that some guy in California, who had friended me a few days ...