I had an opportunity recently to learn a valuable lesson I hope to remind myself again and again throughout the year.
Setting the scene
This past week I was locked out of my car in the late afternoon on a cold and snowy day in the downtown core. It was beginning to get dark and the streets were very quiet on this holiday weekend.
Nervous concern began rising inside me.
I was forced to reach out for help. So I began to go thru my mental rolodex.
Who do I call? Will anyone realize I’m not home? Who should I burden? Why am I feeling so anxious and alone?
Reality is a bi#!h
After my husband died I came to the difficult realization that I am solely responsible for me now.
In the past, I would not have hesitated to call my husband for comfort and help. He was an extension of me. We were a team. He always had my back and we were responsible for one another. It’s what we did.
Who do I call?
I was filled with negative self talk. My inner voices were on overdrive!
- I don’t want to be anyone’s responsibility
- I don’t want to be anyone’s burden
Armed with my coaching tools, I brushed away the negativity and called my daughter. Her immediate offer to help warmed my heart.
I now wonder why I hesitated to reach out for help.
- Is it pride?
- Self doubt?
- A feeling of being needy?
- Fear of being rejected?
- Acknowledging how alone I truly feel?
Regardless. I am proud of myself for pushing out of my comfort zone.
The good news
I am so grateful for my daughter’s response when I texted her later that evening to say thank you.
“Always there and doing our best, you’re not alone you’ve got a whole big family.”
I was reminded that I am loved. Sometimes we need to be reminded.
Wishing everyone a happy and healthy year ahead filled with self-love and compassion. Remember, you were loved by your partner because you ARE worth it.
Those reasons for why you hesitated–I think I’ve experienced every one of them. We ARE loved!
Thank u for Ur input. We are loved. 🙏🏽