Christmas morning, I wake up in my house alone. Just the cat and the dog are with me. A strange feeling passes over me. One of longing. Christmas has not felt like it used to since 2020. Yesterday I was ...
In the darkness was the woman I was before Matt died. The woman he fell in love with. Someone I forgot I was until it was pointed out to me that I was avoiding so much of the person I ...
Yesterday marked the one-year anniversary of buying my home. Somehow that does not seem possible but then I remember that I did not move into the house in June and that is probably why this time has seemed to fly ...
I am glad that my stepson is still part of my life every time I have him for the day it makes my soul happy. This is the first weekend that he has spent at the new house. In the ...
Thursday I made it through Thanksgiving with very few tears it was a win for me that I needed on the grief journey. Being the third without Matt so I knew I would be okay there, but it was my ...
Friday night Back in September, I went to my cousin’s wedding. Although I was happy to be there and see family that I had not seen it years it was painful, and I struggled with my emotions. Being a widow ...
Waking up way too early yesterday I get out of bed to feed the cat. I didn’t need to be anywhere for a few more hours. Climbing back into bed I couldn’t help but remember when I would make Matt ...
We have or have almost made it through Halloween. For me, it is the easiest of the holidays as we never really did anything for it. We had Tiernan for one year and it was great being able to take ...
Today I realized that the only thing keeping me from moving on was my own head. It was suggested months ago when I was in therapy that I start to try and date. Nothing serious but to dip my toe ...