Today would have been our eleven-year dating anniversary. And I am honestly not okay. I wanted to be I wanted this third year without him to pass without the sadness and pain. I take a walk down memory lane. Remembering ...
So many widows and widowers have had to experience the loss of their Beloved by watching them be taken away by some cruel, all-consuming sickness. My story is different because I lost Bret to suicide. The events leading up to ...
Yesterday if someone was watching me clean my house, they would have made a reel out of it. I was trying to clean and organize my room so I could get the rest of the furniture from my grandmas and ...
Navigating through the days, weeks… even moments at times… of our journey through life after losing our husband can range from uncomfortable to formidable, and prayerfully eventually stabilize to some degree. Over time we learn to grow even as we ...
I'll never forget the first time I woke up with a nasty cold brewing after Bret's death. My daughter and I were living with my parents and while it was nice to have them there, they didn't exactly do all ...
A part of me surely died the same day as my late husband. Most widows would probably say the same thing. When you spend so much time wrapping your life around someone else, it takes a while to unravel yourself ...
When someone we love leaves this mortal coil, people are quick to assure us that they are still with us. I honestly always believed that too, based on my own experiences with departed relatives. I have had so many lovely ...
Everything falls on our shoulders when we are widowed which means spoiling ourselves a little should as well. Or at the absolute bare minimum, self-care must become a huge priority in our lives. I have always been someone who has ...
The below creative nonfiction piece was recently published in Heartspace II: Real Life Stories on Loss and Renewal, an anthology collection edited by Cathy Brooks Edwards. This is second book in the Heartspace series and states that it is “an ...
CW: Suicide/Suicide methods My husband died by suicide. All loss is painful, all deaths break hearts. Deaths by suicide, however, are more than painful; they are also taboo. I am nearly five out from that utterly devastating day and in ...