This week has been a challenge and I did not handle it the way I should have. I recognize that and own that I made mistakes when it came to my grief this week. Instead of taking on the moment ...
Do you still grieve 7 years later? Yes, I have been asked that question. I will always grieve the loss of Jared. Always. And I will always grieve Steven’s loss. Grieve that my little boy has to know ...
Psssst, would you like to know a secret??? Grief is NORMAL!!! So let’s congratulate United States for creating a National Grief Awareness Day. Its purpose is to raise awareness about grief by providing resources to those going thru it and ...
This week my baby girl started kindergarten. Such a big milestone. She’s been waiting for so long to get on that bus and be at school with the big kids. Three years to be exact. Since watching her brother step ...
Last night my new husband and I watched a show where the people returned 5 years after they were presumed dead. And it made me wonder what would happen if Jared came back now. 7 years later. What would ...
Last year I got a weeping willow tattoo on my leg. It is a half-dead half-alive tree. The irony in getting that in 2020 then losing my husband is not lost on me. But the reason I got that tattoo ...
I am divorced. And I am a widow. I’m a divorced (not remarried) widow. Can those two identities co-exist? I’ve asked myself this question a lot over the past three years and I still haven’t found an answer. AJ and ...
In that last week of my husband's life I was keeping track of what time I gave medicines. My daughters had set up a spreadsheet for us to monitor everything. Medicines to try to keep my husband out of pain ...
When David died, I never knew how to answer "how are you doing?" Sometimes they would respond to their own question with "day by day, I guess, eh? Yup just day by day," why were people asking rhetorical questions? What ...
I was having a hard time figuring out what to write about this week. There is so much I want to share with my fellow widows. I started writing a different post, but it felt like this post should come ...