It's that time, again. The ten-day period between the anniversary of Rick's death and his birthday, the day we held his celebration of life. August 13th to August 23rd, 2017: the most painful time of my life. After seven years, ...
I reported for jury duty a couple weeks ago. It’s probably my tenth time in the past 45 years since I was first summoned in my early twenties. However, this was the first time I’ve served that we were allowed ...
As I watch my children play, I'm reminded of how much they've grown and changed over the past few years. Each day, they surprise me with their resilience, their joy, and their ability to find magic in the smallest of ...
We've all heard the saying "You won't understand (* something *) until it happens to you." Intellectually, we get what that means, but we won't truly know, to the depths of our souls, the accuracy of that phrase until something ...
The loss of a beloved partner is devasting and when my husband, Monty, was killed I wanted answers. Almost two years later, the answer to my initial question of “WHY?” is still elusive. After the widow’s fog lifted, even more ...
Lit I hold the memorial for you at our house. Three hundred people domino up and down the stairs and the hallways. There is a white tent outside for overflow and a firepit that the kids throw soda ...
August 29, 2014 - THE day. I think back to that day more often than I’d like to admit. I sit with those feelings a lot, perhaps too much according to some. Time IS relative and people seem to forget ...
Ash I know what you think – that it would be dark like ash from a campground, from a cigarette you shouldn’t be smoking. But it’s not a house fire. It’s matter that cannot be created nor destroyed. ...
Rick died six years ago today. Not always being a rational person, I decided the best way to handle this awful anniversary would be to sleep through today. That didn’t work. For one reason, my cat did not agree with ...
Not too long into my own widowhood journey, I noticed something that happens once the newness of our loss has worn off for everyone but us: many of my friends, most of my lovely, wonderful support group had all but ...