In the moments after Matt died I was faced with more heartache. And in the midst of all that Thanksgiving happened. I was not grateful for anything. As my struggles continued I could not see how I would ever be ...
Add this to the unending list of peeves that plague the widowed: when people refer to our late spouses as exes! Unless you were permanently split up when they passed, these are not our exes. (And for those who were ...
Second Chance When Matt first died my heart was so broken I didn't think I would try to love again. After a year I thought maybe I could but realized I couldn't. But I took the time to heal ...
Three years If you told me three years ago tonight that Matt would die the day I would have never believed it. But somehow when the officer called to say he passed away I knew that he was gone. My ...
Day by Day I have been just holding it together. So many things are happening and on top of it I am in that time of year that I hate now. My Birthday weekend was our last good weekend. ...
Grief never ends. As we move through the grief we face today we know there will be more things in the future to grieve. We will have periods of time where everything is going well we feel happy. But either ...
The other night I was watching 911 Lonestar we are catching up on old seasons when they showed one of the characters losing her husband unexpectedly. She calls 911 tells them what happened ask them not to turn on the ...
This past week I was at a fair with my sheep. People who knew Matt were there. Telling them I was dating someone was strange but it was still good. One of the women there and I sat and talked ...
I know the pain you’re going through because I've been there too. Losing my husband was the most challenging and heart-wrenching experience of my life. The months that followed felt like climbing a never-ending mountain of grief, with every step ...
When you have a week that you don't experience a grief moment like you thought you would. That absence of an episode leaves you feeling like something is missing. It is odd to miss grief. When everything is going to ...