Today my mom wanted to go to the Big E. I really didn’t want to go but I went. There are a lot of memories there from when we first started dating. Tonight, my grip on my grief started to ...
Fall is approaching just days away. Out of all the seasons, it is the one that I love the most. The heat finally has broken. It is cool in the house with out the fans on. The evenings are perfect ...
Birthdays will never be the same. Mine will always remind me of the people that are missing that always made it special. Dinner at grandma's was my thing to do every year except the four that I was away ...
This week has been freeing to me. For the first time in forever, I felt happy. I have not been in the darkness of my grief. It has been a much-needed change not to feel weighed down, stressed out, and ...
This has been a very long weekend for me socially, but it was good. Like every other time I have an event coming up, I freak out before. Events that I always had him at as a buffer for when ...
Does anyone else clean their bathroom at 11 pm because even though they are on day 14 of not sleeping much they are not tired? Because at night when you lay down the anxiety itch becomes real, and it makes ...
Old Me, New Me I found past pictures of me on my phone. Strange that I have taken a selfie around the same time every year. Old me from 2020 before the world flipped upside down. 2021 old me that ...
Today is the 25th of the month. And a Monday. A date on the calendar that changed my life forever. A reminder of the worst day of my life. It’s been 49 months since that date on the calendar struck, and ...
I lost track of the days in July. Not for any other reason than so much has been happening all at once. Staying busy helps me. On Friday I had to sign some paperwork and it hit me. Tuesday is ...