Comfort Friday, I felt off most of the day I couldn’t place what was wrong at first. Then mid-day it dawned on me that someone had tried to comfort me the day before by giving me a hug. As much ...
When Matt died, I went back to work immediately and until this week I would have told you that I was healing. I realized this week that instead of dealing with my feelings and emotions I instead put on this ...
I feel lost. Like a boat out to sea that can’t find its way out of the storm. The waves are crashing in on the deck. I look around and I am alone. No place to put down my anchor. ...
Matt and I would have been married eight years this coming Tuesday we were only married six. On our fifth anniversary we took a trip to Maine by ourselves it was our only vacation alone. This year I am packing ...
There is an empty chair on the porch. I use to find him sitting in it smoking a cigarette while playing on his phone. Nights I needed to talk I would go out there and sit on the deck box ...
Today I was watching NCIS: New Orleans with my grandma and they were talking about grief the quote that stood out to me was “Same love that lifted you up in life can drag you down in death.” I have spent so much of the last year trying ...
This past week while out for drinks with some co-workers one was pressuring me about moving on and dating. When I said I was happy alone they would not stop. I made the point that I was single by choice. ...
Last Sunday was Easter and I was doing everything in my power to make it perfect for my grandma. Every holiday, since she went on hospice, has been this way. In my mind, I think this could be the last ...