Keeping Busy Sometimes I consider myself lucky that Matt died while things were not normal and still sort of shut down. It allowed me to hide away from the world and deal with my feelings or not deal with them. ...
After a week where I am exhausted from the emotional burnout and stress from the week I just want to bake. Tonight, I thought about fall-themed baked goods. Pumpkin chocolate chip cookies, muffins, and to get ideas I went on ...
My Husband Matt... I am at a sheep and wool festival this weekend with people who don't know my husband is dead. They don't know how much I enjoy talking to them. Because there is no pity in telling them ...
A sense of humor has been a huge part of my personality since I was a child. My favorite relatives, teachers, friends and more have been the ones that could easily make me laugh. Needless to say, my love of ...
Saying Goodbye Standing in front of a room full of people that I convinced myself all hated me I gave a goodbye speech to Matt. I talked about how much I loved my husband the whole time thinking that everyone ...
This week I was a bad friend. Two people that I know had family members pass away. One their dad and the other their grandma. I reacted poorly and I am kind of ashamed. The early stages of grief were ...
Yes, wardrobe. Why, oh why would a Widow's wardrobe be questioned? Before we get too far, I will say that I enjoy using humor in my writing and in dealing with my own grief. This is going to ...
Thursday 9/9/21 I have been a wreck all week. It is Thursday and I spent most of the day crying on and off. He was on my mind most of the day. I just missed him and really wanted him. ...
Our son has his first day of preschool next week, and hes excited, but I’m a little nervous. I’m nervous about my kid being the one with a dead dad. That’s not how we feel about him, as hes very ...
Next week is my birthday and normally I would be excited, but this year is different it is the first without him. September was a good month for us and it felt like things could only get better from there. ...