I always feared Matt dying. It always seemed irrational until it wasn't. I dreamed about him dying. Then one day I got the call that I feared the most making all those fears valid in my head. If I had ...
Once you become widowed and see just how awful people can be following your loss, sometimes one might think that particular brand of ugliness is directed just to us and our new stations in life. Maybe I'm just too sensitive ...
The hits keep coming my dog who I have had for 13 years is starting to have issues. She has been with me through it all. Meeting Matt, falling in love, getting married, and him dying. Through it all she ...
What kind of widow are you? & What kind would you like to be? Widow is a word that feels tattooed to my flesh against my will. Try as I might to scrub it away, conceal it, or pretend I ...
Tomorrow is Memorial Day which in this country has turned into BBQ and parades celebrating the “Summer” starting. But tomorrow is not about that, it is about remembering those who have passed and honoring the ultimate sacrifice that some of ...
I know that being resentful isn't the best personality trait, but I feel it rear its ugly head sometimes. My husband Bret lost a battle to a lifetime of mental health struggles. Even though it was suicide, carried out in ...
Moving on after the losses we face come with challenges that dating did not have before. There is the ghost in the room. The ghost of the life you lived before. My ghost is all over my home in ...
Here I stand at the end of another school year. They go so quickly now, each year seeming to pass faster that the one before. I can honestly say that the passing of time has taught me so much but ...
Not too long into my own widowhood journey, I noticed something that happens once the newness of our loss has worn off for everyone but us: many of my friends, most of my lovely, wonderful support group had all but ...
For those of you that have been following my journey, you know that moving on has been a struggle for me. About a year after Matt died, I tried and quickly knew I was not ready. In the last year ...