Saying Goodbye Standing in front of a room full of people that I convinced myself all hated me I gave a goodbye speech to Matt. I talked about how much I loved my husband the whole time thinking that everyone ...
This week I was a bad friend. Two people that I know had family members pass away. One their dad and the other their grandma. I reacted poorly and I am kind of ashamed. The early stages of grief were ...
Yes, wardrobe. Why, oh why would a Widow's wardrobe be questioned? Before we get too far, I will say that I enjoy using humor in my writing and in dealing with my own grief. This is going to ...
How awesome would it be to have widow cards? A friend knows you are going to do something hard and they just send you a card that says “I know this is going to feel like your heart is breaking ...
Thursday 9/9/21 I have been a wreck all week. It is Thursday and I spent most of the day crying on and off. He was on my mind most of the day. I just missed him and really wanted him. ...
It cannot be stressed enough that a good support system is one of the most helpful things a new widow (or any widow in general) can have. In the early days of my loss, I pretty much had a whole ...
Next week is my birthday and normally I would be excited, but this year is different it is the first without him. September was a good month for us and it felt like things could only get better from there. ...
In honor of National Grief Awareness day, I will share that widowhood pet peeve number 1,376,897 is when someone refers to my late spouse as my “ex.” He’s not my ex, y’all. We didn’t break up. He died. Sometimes the ...
This week has been a challenge and I did not handle it the way I should have. I recognize that and own that I made mistakes when it came to my grief this week. Instead of taking on the moment ...
Last year I got a weeping willow tattoo on my leg. It is a half-dead half-alive tree. The irony in getting that in 2020 then losing my husband is not lost on me. But the reason I got that tattoo ...