The Season  I can smell the memories coming back reminding me of what I was about to lose in 30 days. I can feel it in the atmosphere deep in my bones my cell memory is regurgitating all those feelings ...
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The Process I just celebrated on July 25, what would’ve been 20 years married to My Devan. I woke up feeling numb yet very peaceful. Each and every morning as soon as I open my eyes I talk to God. ...
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  Summer Time Driving around in my car with the roof open listening to Beyonce new cd in June the second day of summer. However, someone is missing and that someone is my Devan. He should be here riding with ...
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I think a part of me thought I would not be in as much pain as I have been in since the very beginning of 2018. Honestly, this has been a very painful 6 months. Some days I don’t even ...
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  It’s 8:44 am I didn’t sleep well last night, I tossed and turned. I usually have “maybe” 2 nights of decent sleep out of 7 nights. I have been this way since My Devan left this world. GOD keeps ...
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NO RULES I stayed with my sister and brother Stace & Beng house last night I have a hard time sleeping at home alone especially these past months. Devan came in a dream to Sandi back in October 2017 and ...
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  Monday....... I woke up so very grateful and thankful knowing that all is well with me and everything pertaining to my life. So how did fear, doubt, and worry creep in? Where did that come from? It came from ...
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  JUST BE Today is February 13, 2018, and for me, that means that it’s been 506 days being a widow and without My Devan. I tossed and turned all night long which happens quite often only to wake up ...
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  Anxiety or Panic I think I had a mini anxiety attack or was it panic? I don’t know the difference, however; what I do know is that I was fine one minute and then the next I was sitting ...
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