When I look at myself in the mirror these days I don’t know the person looking back at me. I see bags under my eyes that I use tons of makeup to cover. I can’t leave home without painting my ...
In just barely over three short months, I will have been widowed for five years. Some days it feels like it's been decades and that I really and truly know how to make it without a partner. Other days, I'm ...
“I am benefitting today from Yesterday’s work” What normally seems like a true statement caused me to question its validity in all situations. Let me explain. On a normal Saturday day of cleaning, I discovered an old folder full of ...
I've struggled with being angry at my late husband for some time now. I forgave him right away for his decision to leave this life. I loved him in ways that I didn't think existed in the real world and ...
We have officially turned the seasonal wheel from the light part of the year toward the darker days. Autumn is many people's preferred season and I absolutely understand why. It's gorgeous and cozy and offers us many treats of the ...
When we find ourselves lost, deep in the pain of grief, we often cry out… why? Most widows reach a point when we wonder why God would allow such a thing to happen to us or our family. Our expectations, ...
It's so weird when someone passes suddenly. One second they are here, the next, they just aren't. In the hours following my husband's suicide, I found evidence of him everywhere that my mind had a difficult time processing. His phone ...
This has been a very long weekend for me socially, but it was good. Like every other time I have an event coming up, I freak out before. Events that I always had him at as a buffer for when ...
Does anyone else clean their bathroom at 11 pm because even though they are on day 14 of not sleeping much they are not tired? Because at night when you lay down the anxiety itch becomes real, and it makes ...
It may be a tired old cliche, but there is some truth to it: You can never go home again. Following my late husband's death, trying to desperately connect with his memory, I considered relocating back to one of the ...