Does anyone else clean their bathroom at 11 pm because even though they are on day 14 of not sleeping much they are not tired? Because at night when you lay down the anxiety itch becomes real, and it makes ...
It may be a tired old cliche, but there is some truth to it: You can never go home again. Following my late husband's death, trying to desperately connect with his memory, I considered relocating back to one of the ...
Old Me, New Me I found past pictures of me on my phone. Strange that I have taken a selfie around the same time every year. Old me from 2020 before the world flipped upside down. 2021 old me that ...
I’m currently reading a book from Pastor Tony Evans called Divine Disruption. It is about how the loss of his wife a few years ago tore a hole in the fabric of his family and affected the four adult children ...
My husband and I only discussed one of us dying when one of our close friends passed away. Looking back, it was a judgmental conversation of what we would do or feel instead of a productive one. We didn’t fully ...
I remember the early days after my husband's death when I longed for a dream of him or any sign that he was still around. I have always had intense dreams about my departed loved ones and usually consider them ...
You would never think that grief and humor go together. But sometimes they do. It’s been ten years since my husband died. My daughters, who were so young back then, have grown into beautiful young adults. The three of us ...
One unexpected facet of grief that I didn't know that I would experience was how our pets must've felt after my husband's sudden death. I am sure many might say that pets aren't something one should be worrying about in ...
I was talking the other day to an old friend of mine about our lives and how different they turned out to be from what we imagined 45 years ago. Yes, I’ve known this particular friend since my undergraduate days ...
It's pretty evident if you have read any of my blogs that I have been processing anger toward my late husband, Bret. It wasn't always that way, however. In the early days and months after his tragic self-imposed death, I ...