We have officially turned the seasonal wheel from the light part of the year toward the darker days. Autumn is many people's preferred season and I absolutely understand why. It's gorgeous and cozy and offers us many treats of the ...
When we find ourselves lost, deep in the pain of grief, we often cry out… why? Most widows reach a point when we wonder why God would allow such a thing to happen to us or our family. Our expectations, ...
It's so weird when someone passes suddenly. One second they are here, the next, they just aren't. In the hours following my husband's suicide, I found evidence of him everywhere that my mind had a difficult time processing. His phone ...
This has been a very long weekend for me socially, but it was good. Like every other time I have an event coming up, I freak out before. Events that I always had him at as a buffer for when ...
Does anyone else clean their bathroom at 11 pm because even though they are on day 14 of not sleeping much they are not tired? Because at night when you lay down the anxiety itch becomes real, and it makes ...
It may be a tired old cliche, but there is some truth to it: You can never go home again. Following my late husband's death, trying to desperately connect with his memory, I considered relocating back to one of the ...
Old Me, New Me I found past pictures of me on my phone. Strange that I have taken a selfie around the same time every year. Old me from 2020 before the world flipped upside down. 2021 old me that ...
I’m currently reading a book from Pastor Tony Evans called Divine Disruption. It is about how the loss of his wife a few years ago tore a hole in the fabric of his family and affected the four adult children ...
My husband and I only discussed one of us dying when one of our close friends passed away. Looking back, it was a judgmental conversation of what we would do or feel instead of a productive one. We didn’t fully ...
I remember the early days after my husband's death when I longed for a dream of him or any sign that he was still around. I have always had intense dreams about my departed loved ones and usually consider them ...