Since Monty was killed, every day has been difficult. At night in my bed, I surround myself with pillows to mask the emptiness. When I wake up, I force myself to begin my morning routine which is very different. It ...
In the end, I’ve gotten through the holidays without fretting as much as I thought I would. There have been tears, there has been sadness, but something his daughter said to me has grounded me despite my sadness and the ...
Christmas came and went. It was just another day on the calendar of this never ending year. I’m relieved it’s over. I don’t believe this loss will ever get easier. But I do think some days will be harder, and ...
A few years back, I managed to work through a good deal of grief and trauma related to my husband's suicide. I had forgiven him early on, but it took time to fully accept things. I was proud of myself ...
Ever since I was a little girl, I loved December. I considered myself so lucky because I was born on December 15th just 10 days before Christmas, so I got double the presents, or so I thought at the time! ...
Excuse me God,…. I would like to make a return. Where is your customer service desk? You see, this isn’t the life I ordered. It isn’t the life I worked for, planned for, hoped for or prayed for. Could I ...
Often people are stumped at what to get for their friends during the annual holiday gift-giving season. If the friend happens to be widowed, you might be scratching your head wondering what you could possibly do to bring a little ...
Everyone says in grief, you lose people. But the truth is, I think you lose people that you never really had. I think it clears the weeds from your garden. It is shocking how true this is though. People that ...
Before I became a widow, I looked forward to the seasons. Spring brought a sense of newness, summer created a desire to break away and get near water, autumn was a reminder that things need to be shed and the ...
Since my husband died, the so-called “magic” of Christmas has been absent from my life. It is hard to create new traditions for your family while remembering the ones not there. When my husband passed away; my kids were 10, ...