Thursday 9/9/21 I have been a wreck all week. It is Thursday and I spent most of the day crying on and off. He was on my mind most of the day. I just missed him and really wanted him. ...
This past weekend my niece was married. And her wedding reminded me that even the best days can have sad moments. That grief is forever. And that we can love the past, present, and future. My niece got married ...
Our son has his first day of preschool next week, and hes excited, but I’m a little nervous. I’m nervous about my kid being the one with a dead dad. That’s not how we feel about him, as hes very ...
It cannot be stressed enough that a good support system is one of the most helpful things a new widow (or any widow in general) can have. In the early days of my loss, I pretty much had a whole ...
When I was 25, my father died in an accident. I was a young adult who still needed her dad. However, I was married with a toddler and with on the way. I was a college graduate and military officer ...
Next week is my birthday and normally I would be excited, but this year is different it is the first without him. September was a good month for us and it felt like things could only get better from there. ...
In reading the post Widowhood Prepared Me For a Pandemic by Carla Duff, from April 16, 2020, I was struck by several things. It was written three days after we found out my husband had a mass on his pancreas, ...
It will always be the burnt hot pocket and the meaning behind it that gets me. You see, I burnt my son's hot pocket, I cooked it for 20 mins instead of 2. That's the story we still to this ...
"You don't heal with time, you heal with intention." I remember reading this line in another widow's blog post early on in my grief, and it resonated so deeply with me that I took it upon myself to start intentionally ...
Survival Mode. That horrible period in the first year that no one talks about. Where every thought in my pretty brunette head was overwhelming. I don't mean normal stressful decisions being overwhelming, I mean the idea of 'do I want ...