After John's death, people said to me, “let me know if you need anything.” Those friendly words were well meaning, but inside I was screaming, thanks, but I need my life not to be shattered into a million pieces, my ...
For two years now, Todd has been the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning and the last thing I think of when I fall asleep. There is always an awareness that he isn’t with ...
This is our 6th Christmas without Jared. Our 6th time decorating without him. Our 6th time filling his stocking with love. Our 6th year doing Christmas without him. Decorating the tree is a bittersweet time for me. All ...
I was pondering how different my life is now that I'm coming up on another new year without Rick. I'm used to this new normal. I'm past the heavy grieving stage, and I'm living the life of a single woman. ...
Once you make it through the first year after losing someone, everyone seems to take a deep breath and get back to their regularly scheduled lives. You’ve made it through the one year milestones, the calls and messages slow down, ...
The overhead lights in the hallway started flickering again a couple of weeks ago. This hasn’t happened in a while, not a long while. When Rick first died, the ceiling lights in the kitchen started to flicker one night. I ...
Tonight, my eleven year old asked me if I was excited for Thanksgiving and the upcoming holidays. I looked at her, too exhausted to be anything but honest in my reply. “I am always excited to spend the holidays with ...
For the first time, I’ll be spending Thanksgiving with my new husband’s family. My family always traveled on this holiday. Went on an adventure. That has been our Thanksgiving tradition for years...travel somewhere new and eat local food. This is ...
Giving Thanks for Dirty Laundry This Thanksgiving I will be giving thanks for dirty laundry. For whatever random reason, the memory of encountering my husband's dirty laundry just after he passed, came to mind earlier this month. Thanksgiving is ...
On November 18, it was 14 years since my dad passed from leukemia. The loss of my father devastated me. It is still painful to think about. We were very much alike and I looked up to him not only ...